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Sigo encaprichada/ I am still infatuated

Él es mi debilidad. 
Por mucho que me esfuerzo, no consigo arrojarlo al olvido.
Esa sensación me corroe, es muy obstinada, terca. Es una atadura sin querer, no deseada.
¿Y qué hago yo para librarme...?

Yo no lo sé. Se posiciona en mi cabeza, como si él fuera el dueño de mis obsesionados pensamientos, el dirigente de mi mente. E inconscientemente yo le doy todas las facilidades. Yo trato de oponerme, pero ese hombre logró en pocos instantes, 
lo que muchos intentaron a largo plazo, 
cuyas pretensiones fracasaron y casi todo fue en vano. Yo sé que debo olvidarle, yo sé. Él no es mi destino, elegímos diferentes rumbos, nuestros caminos se separaron, y yo aquí aun enganchada al pasado. Engachada a esta fatalidad. Y es que yo sigo encaprichada con él, yo sé, él me quiere, pero en oposición a mí, el amor no está en su primer lugar y
es por eso, nuestros corazones en distancia están.
Yo pido por un pronto encuentro y aunque sé que debería abandonar esta lucha de mínimo sentido, yo por tenerle de nuevo en mi vida, todo daría.
Es difícil olvidarle, pero no imposible, yo sé. 
Sinceramente creo que mis intentos y esfuerzos no fueron los más empeñados.
Mis recuerdos parecen ser más fuertes, más fuerte de lo que mi razón gorjea.
Yo sé, a veces aunque duela, lo mejor es decir 'adiós'.

He is my weakness. 
No matter how hard I try, I can't manage to forget him.
That feeling gnaws at me, it is very stubborn, stubborn. It's an unwilling, unwanted bondage.
And what do I do to free myself...?

I don't know. It takes up a position in my head, as if it were the owner of my obsessed thoughts, the ruler of my mind. And unconsciously I give him every facility. I try to oppose him, but this man achieved in a few moments what many have tried in the long run, 
what many have tried to do in the long run, 
whose pretensions failed and were almost all in vain. I know that I must forget him, I know. He is not my destiny, we chose different directions, our paths diverged, and here I am still hooked to the past. Hooked to this fatality. And I'm still infatuated with him, I know, he loves me, but as opposed to me, love is not in his first place and that's why our hearts at a distance.
that's why our hearts are at a distance.
I pray for an early reunion and although I know that I should give up this fight of minimal sense, I would give anything to have him back in my life.
It is difficult to forget him, but not impossible, I know. 
I sincerely believe that my attempts and efforts were not the most determined.
My memories seem to be stronger, stronger than my reason chirps.
I know, sometimes even if it hurts, it's best to say 'goodbye'.

by So Sunny

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